Let's talk about something happy.

This week has been crazy hard, so here's some positivity from me to you!

Jul 2, 2020

To be honest, I thought about what I should write for this newsletter for an hour or so, and just couldn’t wait any longer for an inspiration to strike me. What is truly happy in my life?

After talking to my sister, who said the climate was the happiness in my life, and my father who said that spending time together was the happiness in my life, I think I finally got it.

The happiest thing in my life right now, at this moment, is writing.

Wow, Srilekha, you’re so creative.

Seriously though, I don’t mean to be cringey, but putting words on a page brings me too much happiness. Some days, yes, I do feel like I just can’t bring myself to type another article to publish, and that’s how it has been for the past week. However, when my mind is in its normal state, writing is ecstatic.

It’s an indescribable feeling of opening up my soul and watching all of my colors flow out of me, the positive and the negative. It’s coming to terms with the fact that I may not be the best writer, but writing is in my blood. It’s all I want to do with my life. It’s about understanding who I am, who I was, and who I want to be.

Writing connects me with the rest of my life. From my work in social justice in mental health awareness, to my family, to my friends, to the annoyances in every life, writing has allowed me to reach into what I truly think about different concepts across my life. And nothing is more valuable than learning about yourself and realizing your true identity.

My happiness stems from being there for myself and having a way to understand myself in the darkest of times. It’s about expression and realizing that you don’t even know who you are until you actually look inside yourself. Thanks to writing, I have gotten the chance to introspect and reflect upon my own actions, thoughts, and emotions.

I have found that I have a dark side, just like everyone else, and not every day will be the happiest day of my life, no matter how hard I strive to be the most positive person. I have faults and negative qualities.

Most of all though, I have realized that I have to accept that that’s who I am, and writing has helped me come to that realization.

Writing makes me happy.

The last few weeks, I have written about the destruction of the world, and even myself, but now I want to take the time to recognize that there are some good things. No matter how much I wanted to write about rejection today or the horrible interview I had earlier this week, or even new opportunities I’ve received this week, I knew that I needed to address something so meaningful to me that I wouldn’t even exist without it.

Guess I have to find something different to write about for my Common App then.

Thanks for reading & much love!

Keep doing what you love.

Srilekha <3